little things

Today was a lovely day. I slept in, picked up some coffee, bought some spray paint from the do-it-yourself store, and deposited an unexpected check into my checking account. Once all the things I needed from town were with me in my car, I headed home. I enjoyed my vanilla latte and a short show online, then I began the work portion of my day.

I started by touching up our old living room tables with some white spray paint. Then I moved onto the garden and weeded almost half of the plot in front of the house. There is so much dirt and land out there, it's hard to imagine weeding the whole thing. I hooked my ipod around my arm and went to work. There's something about that zone you get in when you're left alone with your head and some good music. I love manual labor for that reason, it can tend to be monotonous, but almost soothing if you get in the right groove.

I came to a realization this last week, that for the first time in my life I have nothing to do. I mean, I have plenty to do, but I have nothing that sits in the back of my head as a constant reminder that I have something to read, or homework, or a project, or someone to contact. I'm no longer in school, it's finished... I don't have the lingering thoughts of what I could be doing to get ahead or get finished with a project. I'm very happy about this. I can finally do fun little things like garden, and organize my room and FULLY enjoy it. I used to feel like I could always be using my time better, and now I feel like I am being useful! agh, it's a little complicated to explain, but I tried.

I feel like I got a lot accomplished today because I was able to enjoy every minute of it without feeling the nagging thought of obligation to school. I enjoy gardening, I enjoy small do-it-yourself tasks. I'm really going to enjoy getting settled more into my room tonight. Simple things like organizing clothes can make life feel good.

I'm enjoying the little things today.